I had a wonderful day. The new episodes of “The Big Bang Theory” started airing and to a point I’d say these nerdy geeky guys are ashamed of themselves for being as much. I kind of felt the same way for a long time. I’d much rather play a Final Fantasy game than watch Baseball, or sit and build a model kit vs. getting rowdy and drunk. To a point, I felt like I didn’t fit into most crowds.
One of my favorite bloggers, Danny Choo, has always been a huge Geek and often I’d wonder if he was ashamed and I think to a point I’ve been jealous of the joy in his face. He isn’t afraid to wave his Geek flag, and the part of me that was jealous was the part ashamed to own a $300 Japanese Gundam model. In a way, Danny’s been a great role model for the empowered geek.
When it comes down to it, what is the point of fitting in if you’re miserable?
The same is very true as a businessman. I did not start Image Freedom to be rich, I did not start Image Freedom to join a club or mimic someone else, I started Image Freedom because developing for the Web is my passion. When you’re six and you say “When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut!” I was saying I wanted to be a Webmaster, I can sit here and say that I am exactly who and what I wanted to be.
That feels pretty damn good.
I’m never going to grow up. I refuse to. I’m done being ashamed of this, and if it bothers ya don’t let the virtual door hit you where the good lord split ya. I’m really bad at being someone I’m not, and I choose instead to just be Matthew. What works for John, Michael, Ryan and Paul isn’t what is going to work for me, as a business owner, or a man.
I have fears, I have areas of my life where I know I need to improve, but I’m starting to really get a kick out of the world just the way it is. I spend a lot of time and a lot of money reading 7 Habits and other empowerment books but truly at the end of the day, you can take bits and pieces of all of these things, but you all you really have to work with is the man in the mirror.
Today I got an e-mail from a client who was on the line with the Better Business Bureau. The man on the other end asked my client if his business was a part of a larger franchise or some national chain. My client wasn’t sure why when the Bureau man said his site, which we just launched this past week, looked too professional to be for a one man operation.
What a compliment!
I’m not always going to do things the way my peers do, structure my business the way they do, or conform to some bauble of who the ideal Matthew should be. I know what makes a good Web Site, I know how to be a good Father, and I know how to be a good man. I can’t promise I’ll do things the way you expect me to, but I can promise you’ll like the results.
I might be a little different, but you know, I’m starting to be ok with that.
I, Geek. Success story.